Savannah
Por Victor Fernández
I´m little scary. I´m hearing some voices. Probably it’s true. I mean. Last week i was mugged. The guy talks about a party in the hills. I think he was a Crips gang member and put a knife on mi face. It was pretty scared. I thought i never going to make porn again. In my head. Hesitation marks or something worst cut end my career. The guy with the knife on my face tell me that Mr. K needed my silence. Now i know who is that Mr. K. Those jews guys on Hollywood are very dangerous. They practically run the country. And i know some of them who kidnapped little girls on the border with Mexico. They rape those little girls. Just to think on that make me sick. Fucking jews. Also they take the girls to put out his organs to sell. It’s a very sick business. Fuckin sick business. Fucking jews. I´m very scared right now. If those man want me be murdered, I have practically no choices. And the worst thing is that those man are the biggest producers in this repulsive town. Shit, i even fell my legs right now. I fell in so much danger. They know my flaw for cocaine. That could put me on jail. I can´t go to jail. Just i can´t. Is more easy for them kill me on jail. Those disgusting jews with his fucking holocaust keeping his back safe. They going to disappeared me. I’m going to lose my mind. Probably they want to make me crazy. This thing is affected me really hard. Those voices are fucking depressing me. Maybe they want to drive me to suicide. I dont want that. I just want keeping doing porn. Not really, i’m having serious troubles with Jeanna. I’m scared what those mans could do it to her. I dont want to involve Jeanna on this. God, i feel like a scumbag. I woke up today with dead threat from those fucking niggers sending by those fucking jews. I know some things. There are involve on the 92 riots. You can´t be part of the showbiz and avoid some type of gossips. Probably i’m going to die for those gossips. Those jews and niggers from Crips started the riots. They pay Rodney King and George Hollyday. They even pay to do the trial on Simi Valley. They own LAPD. Those mans are planning a racial war. I have a lot of shit in my head wright now. Things i ever wanted to now. I got like four Threats of death. Its brutal out there. I can sleep and wen i do for like one hour or less i dream with a nigger whit a gun. And he takes my head and put inside a blinder. It’s a fucking illuminati thing. I wanna be with my mom and i dont know what can i do. I can go to the police and i don´t want my mom being killed. It’s the same with Jeanine. I know now that in this town you can be yourself. Mate feed kill repeat. Repeat. Repeat. And i just don’t want to ended like a human scumbag. I have scare of everything right now. Those jews kill Kurt Cobain. And he was bigger. I´m like a fuckin mosquito to them. A mosquito who know to much. I need my mom. I need someone to talk, but i can´t. My head its going to exploited. I have my nerve broken. And i need attention from Jeanne. And i don´t know how to talk to her without broken in tears. And i can’t tell her about the jews and the fucking niggers. I dont feel capable to do nothing. I just hear voices and think in the death threats. You know. And i just counting the time. I buy a gun but a have fear of that to. I´m seeing my life tear apart. I´m in a big hole. I just. I dont know. I just want my life back. I want to see my mom again and keep being the same girl. But it’s probably… i dont want to die. Today is 10 of July of 1994 and i´m counting the minutes.
